from the soul — <3
a wild, gentle, winter light
🌿 the arrival of fern: a birth story from the forest floor fern lucia elizabeth 12/6/2025 holy cow. my baby is here. what a release. what a blessing. what a journey. here comes the sunset just for you, little baby. //she’s asleep in my bed and i am stiff and banged up. the full moon…
Transforming Reality with The Consciousness Weaver
////the first time i found these mushrooms i was flabbergasted. I knew exactly who they were. They were growing in clusters in such quantities that i have never seen the likes of since. I was anxiously pacing beneath a near winter dusk sky, taking my break as a server at a busy strip mall restaurant-…
Breaking Free from Shame: My Path to Wholeness
(OR : THROUGH THE LENS OF CPTSD) helpful resources at the end… i’ve been able to release old coping habits that were keeping me stuck in a loop. I’ve confronted old beliefs—- I’m not defective, I have trauma responses!! I even started dipping my toes into a deep fear of mine: financial literacy // (who…
compost as the oracle
compost as the muse: FAREWELL POLLY COMPOST Here i am, gathering leaf mulch for my urban compost pile- november 2017 My website has been called polly compost for years- i was an anarchist urban composter. I raged against the machine with my compost piles- my urban clothesline- my kitchen ferments. I learned about permaculture and…
Unlocking Consciousness: Magic in CPTSD Recovery
another chapter in this story I’ve gone on a spiral walk over the years through many dimensions of healing- A deep layer of pain and dysregulation I was an edgy young mother- living in a big stucco house in a subdivision where all of the earth had been scraped over and covered in concrete Sleeping…
Hidden Dimensions: What Wild Mushrooms Taught Me About Joy & Freedom
and heeding the heart song 8 years ago i followed the tiny breadcrumbs my heart was leaving around. I was just learning to do this work- this joy work- digging myself out of the depression of survival as a single mother of two/full-time student/ restaurant server. I was dreaming about mushrooms, and foraging for them…
Lead with a Coherent Heart: Your Path to True Self & Freedom
This one practice changed my life- the 3 benefits of being a heart-empowered individual—- some days I feel so much peace I watch the moon rising in the 3 o’clock afternoon bluebird sky, sitting at the shore of our local swimming hole. a thunderhead rises over the high sierra peaks- I can sense the whole-…
Awaken to Your Full Power
and transcend limiting beliefs – my story- it’s incredible to me how much we can fear our own power. we can shake our heads stubbornly, defending our smallness. our lack. we can point out the sparseness of resources experienced as a child- “THERE WAS NO MONEY FOR COLLEGE!” we can wave our hands over our…
delight, grief– both
words and photos from the mountain have you ever seen a waterfall buttercup? the death of a sweet gander by bear, and a burial. I’m watching my favorite seaon roll in- march feels perfectly wild rain and roaring thunderheads- the birds sing Waterfall buttercups on the moss above the river Spring coming with the snow…
an adventure inspired by hongos sagrados en oaxaca
on the flight home all i can think about is the vibrancy that i could instantly sense; art on walls that convey a true knowledge of spirit- art that shows the rootedness to the earth – murals of corn squash roots mothers and many other sacred symbols cover the buildings – no permission needed to…
every day you play
I’m in love with the world The dark shadows of may clouds over emerald green these post beltane days are luscious, sensual, full to the brim- bright sun lit days and blossoms and bare footed all day long in the garden- it reminds me of lines from pablo neruda’s famous poem, everyday you play Every…
nearly spring dreams
here in the sierra nevada foothills, it feels like early spring- bird song and thunder song with heavy rain and sun. fresh wild greens like chickweed and miner’s lettuce become pesto. i follow my toddler around the greening paths— pruning fruit trees and planting bare roots— clipped raspberries and olalaberries from my mom’s garden- we…
news from the otherworld
that imaginal realm and intermediary realm has broken into our interconnected environment – as well as visitations and inspirations coming from the unseen realms as so many things in the contemporary world become divided these intermediaries that can be seen as ancestor spirits, as animal spirits as nature spirits were what filled in the space between…
journaling utopia
(from my journal, by the river 2019) spirit weavers is the kind of place that makes you think that anything is possible– it’s proof that magic is real- anything is possible: live with joy and passion from your heart- i’m so much stronger than last year-healed and whole: i’m a believer. …the words fill my…
majesty, mountain, mystic
We went to the mountains- so full of air- peaks like fully expanded chests- the colors were true- colors, pure turquoise and gold and neon orange of aspen- robin’s egg of thermal pool. My love and i carried our tiny daughter to lake’s edge, through golden trails. The spirits were strong in the mountains- nearly…
spring child
I stayed in bed all day on my 34th birthday The world outside was alive and beautiful -full of early spring blooms A bouquet of lilac was on my windowsill, filling the room with its perfume. The windows open to the softest spring breeze And the sweetest bud of life was breathing softly in my…
heaven is now
Even if you are on a journey of becoming, shifting, changing, strengthening.Don’t forget to love who you are right now, in the shape, story and moment you sit in.Otherwise your journey of becoming may be more of a journey of running away, your path of change fueled by dislike.Learning to love yourself in this very…
transformation and medicine
hello friends! these photos are me at 5 months pregnant: autumn 2021 it feels like spring time is here in the foothills of the sierra nevada– the plum is blooming and the grass is soft—- and i have a flower essence appreciation post and a bit of an origin story: (and as you can see,…
medicine for a new world
medicinal mushroom species of western turtle island amanita muscaria—i came upon this mushroom during a challenging time in my life– it has since assisted in the unfolding of the mythic fabric of my reality, coming often in dreamtime: people will hand me this mushroom– i will find it growing in all sorts of environments. the…
joy ride//// freedom from the known
home is a sweet place we tend// our altars and gardens whose life are you living ? i’m so excited about these changes in my life/// i’m home with the woodpeckers trilling and the hollyhocks beneath a summer morning sky. a marine layer of clouds has kissed the foothills . i sing songs to the…
path finding//
visionary wanderlust. receptive to the healing spirit of this wild land/ i’m at my best during a magical day of tramping/// a new place/ a new plant community// a new eco-system mushrooms/ desert/ tortoise/ swamps/ hello hello hello! Places I’ve never seen beforeNo responsibilities Camera fanny pack bananasButterflies not pictured It’s amazing when you get…
glory in the morning
an ode to my flowery bff: presence. yes, the morning glory is blooming. the green heart shaped leaves, like a radiant heart chakra, twine up the wooden deck railings, supporting the great dance of blue blossom presence, unfolding to the sky —– singing a clear blue song to life— i sit in morning meditation, singing…
what the moon has shown me:
when the moon is full she is at her most radiant. she reveals. she hides no aspect— she illuminates what has ripened in our lives in the last cycle— what has waxed and waned- many full moons have found me amazed with what i was witnessing— revelatory and dream like. pay attention to what culminates…
experience the mystical–
there is a land that calls to me– the trees whisper your name- a sacred place, that stirs up shadow/ where the land brings visions- i had longed to visit alaska as long as i can remember the mushroom connects me to magic— deep connection heals by cutting away any untruth/ feeling like alice in…
the good and the glorious/// becoming
on the eve before summer solstice a chocolately brown bear galloped across the driveway, fluid in it’s wild motion. i was mesmerized. i was returning home from sacred land, visiting the waterfall and granite people- it was true alignment with magic that brought me there. every year of my life i return to this place,…
delivered to the promised land
milk honey abundance living simply and co-quarantining in provo– in words and pictures i’ve got to admit, i’ve been grateful for the slow down during these strange and unprecedented times. it seems now that our lives were punctuated with deep distractions and schedules determined by outside forces. i’ve got to be honest: it seems that…
desert quest/ desert awakening
visionary community: a healing experience with sonia like a desert flower- there is an essence to the desert- the desert says: trust yourself. expand with self love. big things are happening over here- my soul called me to the desert so i could learn. say yes to spirit carried by a rainbow dream to a…
transformation & connection
a common spiritual ancestor we are earth, so all of earth is kin. the amanita muscaria is a source of deep magic for many human peoples— scandinavian peoples, russian folk- japanese legends and native alaskan and american lore- celts and Indians too— what do you think they call have in common? Found and used in…
co-creation/ contemporary bohemians
things are happening in my life— the world is opening up and i’m saying yes. there is joy and magic in soul work The dead of winter is a perfect time to believe in magic. i drive over the sierra nevadas to return to a haven in reno- crafted by my friend and mentor sheila,…
re-imagining culture; mystic bazaar
This is the nature of going forward into being: A series of self-transforming ascents of level. terence mckenna “The imagination is the goal of history. I see culture as an effort to literally realize our collective dreams.” terence mckenna we are no longer talking about our ideas, we are becoming them. a lot of the…
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